(0:00:08) Hello, my friend, and I want to welcome you back to this sacred space of exploration. I'm Tiffany D'Elia, and today we're about to dive into one of my most favorite topics. It's an episode that touches the very core of our human journey, death and rebirth, the cycles of transformation. This is the alchemy of self, a continuous process of evolution, of redefining and reshaping who we are.
(0:00:38) Because at every moment, whether you realize it or not, something within us is dissolving and something new is coming to life. So death and rebirth are part of the rhythm of existence itself, pulsing through our bodies, our relationships, our stories, and even the universe around us.
(0:00:59) And yet, when most people think about spirituality, they don't think about the death and the rebirth. They think about healing or finding peace or escaping pain. But true spirituality, as we'll explore in this episode, is inseparable from the cycles of transformation themselves. Think about this.
(0:01:22) Most people embark on a spiritual journey because they want to feel something more. They're seeking to heal their wounds of their past and to begin living with more peace. Usually that's what people are seeking, to feel more at peace. So they think spirituality is going to help them with that. And that's not exactly a bad thing, but the point of this podcast is to redefine what it means to be human on a spiritual journey.
(0:01:54) And then on the other hand, we have humans who just want to live their life. They have absolutely no desire to be spiritual. And there's nothing wrong with that either. But what most people don't understand is that just because they don't live in the way a quote spiritual person lives, that they're not spiritual. But let me assure you, if you are a living, breathing being, you are spiritual.
(0:02:21) Spirit literally means one that breathes. You breathe and therefore you are a spiritual being. And so this is the true meaning of being spiritual. We all breathe and we are all alive, so we are spiritual beings. Being spiritual doesn't mean waving around crystals and trying to be all love and light. So I hope that this podcast can also bring a new light to what it actually means to be spiritual.
(0:02:51) Because in my opinion, spirituality has taken its own road down a path that avoids hitting any potholes or dark alleys. But this bypassing our own humanness is not how we evolve. And we'll come back to this later.
(0:03:11) Now, there's a growing body of evidence across physics, neuroscience, and philosophy that all point towards what many of our ancient traditions have always said, that consciousness is fundamental, meaning everything we perceive, matter, time, space, and the body, it's all mind stuff, a projection within consciousness, not something outside of it.
(0:03:40) We assume all of these things exist out there, independent or separate of us, but they're not external things. They're all appearances within consciousness. And we're in episode six now, so if you've stuck with me up until this point, I'm sure this means that you have some awareness of that. You are not separate from that which you see, feel, and observe, and that nothing is truly material. But everything is a live,
(0:04:09) and malleable and vibrating, cycling endlessly. If everything is consciousness, then you and the world are made up of the same essence. So if you and everything around you are made of the same essence, then it must all be one essence.
(0:04:32) Consciousness plays a game of differentiation. The one is experiencing itself as the many. It's an infinite spectrum of the same consciousness just appearing in different forms. So if you are a spiritual being temporarily experiencing a human life within this malleable interactive living field of consciousness...
(0:04:55) then it makes perfect sense to learn how to interact and learn the rules of this human suit that we have for this human exploration. And death and rebirth is a very big part of this exploration. In fact, it's the central technology of this exploration.
(0:05:16) Because again, nothing here is fixed or dead matter. Everything is alive, vibrating, responsive, continuously cycling through death and rebirth again and again. This is the living rhythm of the universe, the pulse of consciousness itself. And here's the secret. You can learn to work with this cycle instead of resisting endings or fearing change.
(0:05:42) You can enter the flow of transformation, shedding, renewing, evolving. And when you do, the whole spectrum of potential opens itself to you. Every death becomes a doorway. Every rebirth is an expansion.
(0:06:03) Every cycle becomes an invitation to explore yet another faucet of infinite consciousness expressing itself through you. So the game of being human is not about avoiding death, but learning to participate in it as the very mechanism of growth, of evolution and awakening.
(0:06:29) As we redefine what it means to be human in a universe made of mind, a mental universe, where consciousness is the fundamental reality, we can no longer cling to the old story of death. Death is not the final chapter. It is the core mechanism through which consciousness evolves itself.
(0:06:51) So in a mental universe, death is not the end of life. It is the pulse of life, the rhythm by which old patterns dissolve so that new realities can emerge. To die while still alive is to consciously participate in this cycle.
(0:07:11) It means allowing identities, attachments, beliefs, and old versions of self to fall away rather than carrying them forward unconsciously. It means learning to surrender to the constant flow of endings and beginnings that shape every moment.
(0:07:37) This is the art of transformation, the recognition that the you you were yesterday has already died, and the you who is listening to these words is already being reborn. So if we are to truly understand what it means to be human in a mental universe, we must master the central teaching, how to die while alive.
(0:08:08) And in doing so, learn how to live more fully. Not bypassing our shadow, but by transforming it. In much of my upbringing, I was always told, just give it to God. Give it to God. Someone hurts you or you feel broken, hand it over to God. He'll save you from feeling that way.
(0:08:33) But who exactly are you handing it to? God is within you. You can hand it to God, but it's still in you. So the only way to truly transform it is to transmute it. It is the alchemy that turns the lead of our old selves or wounds and pain into the gold of our highest potential.
(0:08:58) or into a new resonance that the living field can then reflect back a new reality. In other words, let the old die and the new be reborn. So today we're going to unpack this through the lens of resonance, that invisible force that shapes our reality. When we're shifting our inner resonance, it can make the outer world look like it's crumbling beneath us,
(0:09:27) relationships dissolving, old lives just falling apart. And this scares a lot of people when you don't fully realize that because you are not separate from anything, but are the same essence, that it is inevitable to experience a dissolution or a death of the old before the new takes its form.
(0:09:53) Our first reaction when life seems to fall apart is to panic, to frantically try to hold it all together.
(0:10:00) trying to keep things the way they were. This is human nature. The ego clings to the familiar, even when the familiar no longer serves us. But what if all of this apparent destruction isn't really destruction? What if it's actually the prelude to a magnificent rebirth?
(0:10:25) What if the falling apart is simply resonance, reorganizing your field, dissolving what no longer matches your frequency, so that something new can emerge? Life was never meant to stay the same. By its very nature, it's actually meant to endlessly transform. But we humans want to resist this change.
(0:10:53) holding on to things in our life so that it stays the same. Life is meant to be experiential, a living dance of endings and beginnings, deaths and rebirths, and to move through what consciously requires trust. Trust that when things dissolve, they do so for a reason.
(0:11:19) Trust that the empty space is simply an invitation for expansion. And trust that chaos is actually just the soil from which deeper transformation takes its root.
(0:11:38) Because the truth is when you allow the cycle to unfold, instead of resisting it, you discover that every ending is secretly a new beginning. You are always being led and being invited into greater coherence, greater wholeness, and greater alignment with who you really are.
(0:12:05) When you become the alchemist of your own life, you are affirming that nothing here is meant to stay the same. Nothing here is meant to stay the same. Everything is meant to transmute. And therefore, so are we. That is how we turn the lead of our old selves into the gold of our highest potential. Every challenge, every wound and shadow,
(0:12:34) becomes fuel for that growth. And you can no longer ask, why is this happening to me? You begin to ask, what is this trying to evolve in me? Because you understand that that wound becomes the womb of a new creation. The alchemist doesn't just let the fire burn, they use it with intentions.
(0:13:02) When you become the alchemist of your life, you start adjusting your own inner frequency, your thoughts, your emotion, your attention, knowing that outer reality will organize itself around that signal. Then lean into trusting that the field, as it mirrors your inner transformation, because that's what it's designed to do.
(0:13:28) So instead of clinging, you recognize that reality is responding to your new coded geometry within your being. It's responding to your inner transformation, your inner work. This is why we don't bypass our shadows, but transform them, rewriting the code that once held them in the darkness and giving them new light.
(0:13:54) The more we enter ourselves and look directly at our shadows, the more we transmute them into gold. And we see the field respond to these rewritten codes. It doesn't just give us a different reflection, it gives us a whole new world. And if we are stepping into a new world, then by definition we must let go of the old one. We cannot cross the threshold while clinging to what no longer resonates.
(0:14:24) trying to drag the old world with us. It simply cannot come with you. The old world is made of patterns and beliefs and identities and even relationships that matched your former, your previous resonance. But when your inner frequency shifts, those old codes no longer harmonize with your field. In other words, they don't belong with who you are now.
(0:14:52) And by evolutionary law, once the code has been rewritten, the old pattern becomes incompatible with your present architecture of reality. It cannot survive as it was. So therefore, it must also transform. And because we are experiencing all of this inside of a construct of time, the transformation takes time.
(0:15:19) It's part of the experience. We experience time. So transformation often appears as a process. It's an unfolding, meaning we must await the full transmutation of the old. And this waiting is the liminal space, the void between worlds.
(0:15:36) And if you listen to episode five, we talked about this step. It's step six, trust. Because this is where the old resonance begins destabilizing. It's where most people feel the deepest grief and confusion, sense of loss. The ego mourns what it cannot hold, not realizing that nothing was ever truly lost. It's only transforming.
(0:16:03) preparing to return to a new form that now resonates with who you are becoming, with who you are now, actually. So the true way of being in the void is not to rebuild the old or rush to the new, but to allow, to feel, to trust, and most importantly, most importantly, to listen.
(0:16:30) In the stillness of this void, the next resonance will whisper itself into awareness. It's here in this process, in this liminal space that you begin to sense all the potential available to you.
(0:16:49) This is the art of dying while alive, to rest inside the unknown with open hands, open heart, knowing that what is dissolving will, absolutely will return to you in a form that matches your new resonance.
(0:17:07) And to be human is to feel this grief of this loss of what's dissolving in your life. To feel the grief of what has died while staying open to the miracle of what is being born.
(0:17:22) It's almost like moving through a birth canal. You're leaving the old world of comfort and something that's familiar to you as it's dissolving and you're moving into a new world. It hasn't fully arrived yet, but you know you're going somewhere. And this space can be scary for a lot of people. But in this space, this is where it's important for you to begin to notice the signs around you. This is the beginning of the integration phase.
(0:17:52) It's when the field starts lining up around your new frequencies. Reflections begin to shift and you can actually feel and watch the new you take form in physical form. The new resonance that you have embodied is taking its form. And it can actually be a very beautiful process.
(0:18:17) But grief, as difficult as this process is, is certainly not the end. It's important to feel this grief and to be present with the things that you are experiencing dissolve around you while you're letting them go. But to know that it is the doorway through which the new enters. Without grief, there would be no evolution. There'd be no depth. No humanity.
(0:18:48) To be human is to allow yourself to feel it fully, but in the feeling it to also be transformed. Because every evolution requires a death. A seed must die to become a tree. A caterpillar must dissolve into literal mush before becoming a butterfly. And old stars must collapse for new elements like the iron in your blood to exist.
(0:19:17) Evolution cannot occur without death clearing the space for rebirth. It's the core technology of evolution. Why do I call it a technology? Because technology is a tool, a mechanism designed for a function. And death and rebirth function as the primary evolution technology of the universe.
(0:19:41) Without this cycle, growth would stagnate. Creation would freeze. Consciousness would never expand. So this very technology is written into you. It is a function of your human system encoded within consciousness.
(0:20:00) your very program. Every cell, every thought, every cycle of your life is designed to die and be reborn. It's already built into your biology. In fact, it's also built into your psyche and your soul. It's the architecture of your evolution. So what does this architecture look like in real life? It shows up every time we face parts of ourselves, what we buried in shadow, and we bring them into light.
(0:20:31) Every time someone triggers us and instead of projecting outward, we turn inward to see the shadow beneath that trigger and choose to transmute it. Every time we're faced with challenges and choose to take them head on, knowing that they're not happening to us, but for us. That is how the technology of death and rebirth becomes embodied in the way that
(0:21:00) that we meet our shadows, in the way that we alchemize triggers, and in the way that we let challenges refine us into a truer version of ourselves. This is the heart of step seven that we discussed in episode five, integration, where the new self anchors
(0:21:27) your body and the mirror of reality is reflecting your new resonance back to you with every new resonance you receive a whole new set of mirrors and so this process continues you've now entered the very rhythm of transformation every time you're reborn into a new resonance
(0:21:49) and stabilize a new vibration, your external world reorganizes around it, bringing you new relationships, new opportunities, and therefore new reflections. So this process continues again and again. These new mirrors draw out other parts of you that you once didn't have access to. They reveal new dimensions within you.
(0:22:18) And your evolution, therefore, can continue. The cycles of death and rebirth is the engine that keeps revealing more and more of who you truly are. And with each cycle, these reflections we meet become clearer, more aligned with your essence.
(0:22:39) Every time you release an old resonance and step into a new one, you shed density and gain more and more coherence.
(0:22:50) And this, this my friend, is what gives rise to the rainbow. Each transformation restores another strand of light within you. Gradually building what the ancients called the rainbow bridge. A living structure that forms inside of your being when your full spectrum is online. It's the arc that connects our humanness to the divine.
(0:23:20) matter and spirit, self and source. It is the bridge within you. Every shadow faced, every healed pattern becomes another restored color in the spectrum of this rainbow until you yourself become the bridge of full spectrum being radiant, whole and capable of walking between worlds.
(0:23:50) True spirituality is not escaping our humanness. We're pretending that our emotions don't exist. It refuses shortcuts. It doesn't deny the reality of grief, of loss, or challenging circumstances. It opens itself to it, to the full spectrum that life has to offer, to feel deeply
(0:24:18) to allow these natural cycles of death and rebirth to help us evolve and deepen our capacity to love, to act in wisdom, to become bridges of service between inner and outer worlds. Your raw human impulses and experiences are part of this world. But that doesn't mean that we can't have the best of both worlds.
(0:24:49) Higher consciousness is not separate from you. It is you.
(0:24:55) And this human technology you inhabit is the instrument your higher self uses to refine and honor and express itself into lived reality. But for nearly 1700 years, we've been programmed by systems, especially in the dominant thread of Christianity, to believe that our raw human experiences are sins that
(0:25:21) Desire, anger, grief, even our sexuality were labeled as shameful, something to repress or hide. And what happens when we bury those parts of ourselves in shame? They become shadow. They go underground, unintegrated, and keep repeating as unconscious patterns. But we were never meant to live cut off from those parts of ourselves.
(0:25:49) So this path, this path of being human in a mental universe, this path is not about repressing the shadow. It's to integrate it. You're meant to be an alchemist. Alchemy is the practice of bringing the divine into the human body where shadows and light can finally be held together in wholeness.
(0:26:17) It is learning to work with this living field of consciousness so that we can evolve, so that we can expand and discover and experience the infinite possibilities available. It is the art of moving across realities, experiencing many facets of the one, becoming a bridge where heaven and earth meet.
(0:26:43) You see, heaven is not a place you get to. Heaven is a frequency that you tune into, and it's available to you this very moment. To walk the rainbow bridge is to embody this wholeness, to become the living connection between heaven and earth, carrying both the depths of our humanness and the heights of our divinity at once.
(0:27:13) It is to be rooted in the earth and connected to the infinite. It means to be human and divine simultaneously. It means living as a full spectrum human, grounded in your feelings, in your body, and in the limits while simultaneously attuned to wisdom, love, and guidance beyond them, beyond all limits.
(0:27:46) And when we live this way, we don't just transform ourselves, we become bridges for others, anchoring higher resonance into the collective field. Every color of the rainbow represents a frequency of consciousness, a vibration of the one. When we deny our shadow, we cut off parts of that spectrum. But when we face it, when we transmute it,
(0:28:16) we weave it back into light we restore not only our own wholeness but we restore the wholeness of the collective mirror that we all share and that's the beauty of this path
(0:28:35) In our next episode, we'll step deeper into this mystery, what the rainbow body truly is, how it's formed, and what it means to live as a radiant bridge between worlds. Because the rainbow body isn't just a myth or mystical idea. It's the lived expression of being human in a mental universe.
(0:28:57) It's where all the pieces that we've been exploring up until now, attention, resonance, death, rebirth, shadow and light, it's when they all come together into a single truth that you are consciousness learning to know itself through form.
(0:29:16) This cycle of death and rebirth is only one of the deeper structures of existence. To be human in a mental universe is to begin learning these structures, the hidden architecture that shapes reality. And the more we understand them, the more we can live in harmony with them instead of unconsciously struggling against them.
(0:29:41) So I want to thank you again for sharing this space with me. Keep alchemizing shadow and delight and I will meet you on the bridge.
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